With no desire to stand back up
No desire to heal
No reason to grow again
Life passed by her as she lay there
She began to shrivel and wilt
Others came by and stomped on her
Making her bleed
Not even looking down to see her
She was nothing
She accepted defeat
Loss
Hear heart grew numb over time
And she remained Broken
As one season passed into another
She thought of the past
The hand that had once held her so gently
The one that had taken time to heal
The one that made her feel again
And she wanted to forget it all
She remained there silent for years
When she awoke she had been transplanted
In her mind were mere memories that LINKED to the past.
She did not desire this
She was confused
Out of frustration, she sat by the window
Thinking this could hurt nothing, be nothing
She listened, and tried not to
She watched as he watered her gently at first
When she was stronger
She anticipated his arrival and welcomed the burst of fluid that fed her
She did not want him to look at her though
Fearing he would see the scars from the spade of the past…
And cast her aside
She could see him there in the window
Smiling
Laughing
Writing messages to the lens
And she felt she had nothing to lose anymore
If he were to care at all, truly care, he had to see
With much hesitation she exposed herself to him
Allowing him to view her as she really was
Dressed in purple, fit for the MASTER,
The Prince was delivered and he laughed
His laughter was not mocking
His face was more beautiful than any she had seen
His neck was inviting
And he made her laugh
For the first time in forever, she laughed
And she cried
And he held her
And she let him
He moved her to a more comfortable spot
He listened intently and heard her whispers
He touched her soul and heard her sigh
He dampened her to the point of drowning
And they laughed
Her only desire was to please him
And watch him feel her LIKE
He dressed her daily in laughter
He caressed her nightly in love
She allowed his voice to soothe her
And she allowed herself to love
And there she remained
The Mended flower
The Iris
Tears cut
like a razor
slicing the eye
so one cannot see
Tears fall
like a raindrop
screaming in pain
falling to death
Tears are stronger than diamond
Tears are heavier than gold
Tears cut
scarring forever
Tears fall slicing the soul
I want to feel cheap
Like a plastic piece of worthless shit in a Souvenir shop
I want to feel used
Like a paper towel wiping mud off the bottom of your shoe
I want to feel tainted
Like a sadness laughed at
I want to feel bruised
like a ripe banana thrown in the trash
I want to feel soured
Like milk in the sun
I want to feel rotten
Like meat left in the trunk of a car
I want to feel violated
Like a raped virgin
I want to feel love
Like the kind that causes suicide
The sign said “Love Me”
Love me please
The towel fell to the floor
Teal
I like teal
Not blue, or green…..Teal
Parts of you are on my knee
“love me”
Love me please
God
Poetry
Read me poetry
from the red notebook
“Love me”
Love me please
She laughs
He smiles and
she
lives
“I am gay”
and
“I am still gay”
and
will you beat me?
just please don’t hurt me
but bite me
make it hurt
but
“love me”
Love me please
6am I want to love you
6am I hear tears
6am “It is OK”
6am “love me”
12:10pm I feel you
12:20pm I hear you
12:30pm I need you
“love me”
I vute you
Another beauty to behold
I wish your body were not cold
I drain what’s you with this device
I’ll puncture you and not think twice
I take you to the river’s edge
And there I’ll love you in our bed
Touch your face and then your breast
I’ll enter you oh my sweet death
I’ll touch your hair as I go deep
I give you love, my sweet relief
I’d call your name but I dont know…
Wait…I’ll check the tag
on your toe
Let me never be ungrateful
and let me never cause you pain
For I have see your soft eyes open
and I’ll never be the same
Let me never be unkind
and let me never be untrue
For I have wakened with your voice
and enjoyed the scent of you
Let me never make you angry
and let me never see you cry
For I have quivered in the shadows
and I have wished my love….to die
Known me at all
Then you will
Scatter me
If you love me
Loved me at all
Please
Scatter me
If you wish me peace
Scatter me
You know my fears
I suffered here, rotting in life
stagnent, soured
And no one was there
And now
in death
Scatter Me
do not place me in the ground
to suffer even more
I cannot hear the birds way down there
I cant smell the Iris bloom
I can’t look upon the mountain high
as the stream sings me to sleep
So if you loved me
loved me at all
please
Scatter Me
Listen
Raise the dead
Breathe together
Raise the dead
Mud above you
Raise the dead
Moans in the fog
Raise the dead
Energy
Raise the dead
Release
Raise the dead
Take my soul and make it yours
Ask me if I care
Steal my heart
Torture me
Erase me pain
Make me cry out in the rain
Your scent is there
Laying on my face
Once, twice, three times babe
Vehicle, dead, laughter
Enough, mud on the windows
